The benefits from being around nature.

I’ve always enjoyed having pets. Even if they weren’t really pets. I used to get in so much trouble for sneaking and feeding the stray cats. Causing them to hang out around the house.

Not to mention the stray somehow suprisingly never rabid dogs. I even found much enjoyment and interest in wildlife. Like feeding the birds in squirrels in my back yard. Helping my grandmother in the day Lilly flower beds and rose bushes

Biology was always my favorite subject since elementary. And just being outside was a pleasure…. 

That was until I developed an unhealthy distrust for all human species.

Seeing another creature wether sential or not seems to promote calms and relaxation for me personally. And also usually being stoned it’s fun to watch pets just… live, you know.
Gives me hope 💗
Never stop appreciation life

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Life is AMAZEBALLS ! **NEW PRODUCTS @ GenderCat™

Or at least products over at GenderCat™ are !! And NOW even BETTER than before !!!

To bring you up to speed ;my first soft intact packer with amazeballs….. Is no more. Long story increasingly shorter, I received my new “and improved” 4inch soft intact packer with amazeballs!

I can feel that material in the sack is stronger and way less likely to tear or bust. Still with awesome floating 3D testicles. It’s been a few weeks but I am already confident and me and my new packer are already inseparable. 

But wait ….. THERE’S MORE !!!!

You can now purchase the awesome body and prosthetics safe soap that is used so GenderCat™ headquarters.

Also prosthetics with the fascination sleeve add on now come with a nifty sleeve insert so you can now adjust the depth of your fascination sleeve or opt out of engaging the sleeve altogether at your leisure.

Once again they are improving the trademark self adhesive sheets we have all grown to adore. Now made with stronger adhesive and easy peel backing. 

“Every time with this company. It’s a swing away and a home-run. I only wish I knew about it sooner”

GenderCat website is now more user friendly head on over and check them out.

The big….. Scalp?

Yes yes I’ve done something outrageous again. This time scalping my waves, destroying progress and basically starting all over, again, again.

It didn’t take much consideration before I knew this was the right thing to do. I was unsteady with my methods and my sessions and just plain not treating my waves right.

I couldn’t bare to cut my hair against the grain like I had originally planned. It just seemed like something I didn’t want to do. I do however go with a 1 on my crown and a .5 wtg and a very low taper.

I refuse to be caught dead with out my rag because when I look in the mirror I see a recovering cancer patient no pun intended. But in about 2 weeks I will be making my returning debuted to the 360 wave community. Hopefully sporting nice connections and a spinning wet 360s.
Brush, Comb & Stay Waves 💯🌊

The GenderExtender by GenderCat™

Yup still new amazing products from GenderCat.

Another one of their new releases this year was the GenderExtender. Similar to the fascination sleeve but more “Gender Affirming”

As you may remember I was fascinated; as stated in my YouTube video on the Fascination Sleeve when it made it’s debut a few months ago. Great for a little selflove and a extra perk in the growth department.

Well it’s gotten a major upgrade since !!!

The new GenderExtender has all the same great features as the fascination sleeve with the added bonus that can be a sight for sore eyes, especially for those that experience “bottom dysphoria”. 

When I first got my GenderExtender I was super excited to try it out. Hence where I learned a important fact about the new product. Because of it’s shape & size even though it’s not that different than the fascination sleeve it did make somewhat of a difference when actually engaged.

“It’s awesome that it’s shaped anytomical… Better, view you know. But definitely a plus if your a pumper.”

I am a comfortable ¾” user for the fascination sleeve insert and stand alone but with the GenderExtender’s sightly different design “hanging” wasn’t achieveable. Not a big deal. Switched over to the ½” and was able to let everything hang out.

Still, it did everything it was supposed to and the different shape provided other ways of use rather than the cylinder shape of it’s first generation counter part.

I give it 5 stars and two thumbs up!!

Get yours at GenderCat

And don’t forget to use my promo code #IAmIman

Me and my waves broke up.

Still love them tho…

So apparently I was less of a waver than I originally thought. I was half stepping and didn’t even know it. I knew it was a tad bit more to 360waves then just brushing. But it was so much more than what I originally thought.

It wasn’t my fault. I was brushing and combing my hair. I didn’t know I wasnt doing shit.”

From the type of brushes you use. The way you tie your rag. The angles to train your crown. There was soooo much I was missing.

Not to mention I didn’t have as much dedication and motivation as a probably should have. And to be honest my routine could have used a few pointers. 

Enough about the bad. Out with the old and in with the new. I have decided to scalp myself. Yes I am going to do it myself. I figured why not. If I am going to try and start this journey over I might as well start it myself.

“I used to cut my own hair on the regular, for almost a year(2014). I’m not a stranger to clippers,… Or taking an L by my own hands.”

Worse comes to worse it’s still pretty cold out so a beanie is the back up plan 😂

Now when I say scalped. I mean scalp. Completely going against the grain trying to undo as much progress as possible. So I guess this would be 360waves v3.0. I haven’t given up yet.

There was a few key factors on why I am starting over:

  • Change the angles I want my pattern
  • Different products and methods
  • Finding a good, knowable barber

I’ve figured out what works best for my hair to get a closed 360spin crown. So know that me and my waves have solved our differences we have decided to give it another chance with a fresh start.

Going back to the fundamentals on this one coach. As I progressed in this journey my dedication started to lack simply because I have good full textured hair; I didn’t have to do much, for the bare minimum. So I’ve agreed to go back to the basics. Keep it simple. Slow and steady.

Most importantly finding a GOOD barber. Not one that is going to knick my crown or give me a regular run of the mill haircut. My pattern is unique and an ordinary haircut slows progress. Sometimes when you want something done right you have to do it yourself. 

Enough of the chit chat see for yourself:

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Should I move back?

Yea never thought I would be considering this and to be honest I’m not even sure if that’s what I’m really considering.

But yet here I am blogging about it so it must be some kinda subconscious problem. So yup, part of me wants to move back to NYC because it’s familiar for one and living there for almost a year I had built bonds with people and established friendship and daily interactions that I really miss. Then of course with Mardi Gras just passing I am becoming increasingly homesick again. And with nothing of really importance keeping me in my current village my brain is telling me; “Well, why the fuck not? *shrug* ” For no other real reason besides that being  HOME 

All of this stems basically from feeling really isolated and alone. Imagine moving into a dorm but not having a roommate. Going to a 2hr class in the same building 5 days a week. Going off campus once a month and that’s only to get food for your ferret. 95% of all social interaction is through a cell phone. Not to mention running out of bud at least 3 times a month. 

Welcome to my life.”


But it’s not all bad. I’ve managed to secure 2 things in adult life that I hate having to deal with. A place of employment & a place of residence. Neither has very taxing upkeep and both are relatively comfortable considering. And that’s basically why I have been stationary. Somewhat just going with the flow for right now.

Partially because that’s easier than stressing about something that’s not even really a problem yet. Mainly because I dread making decision and hate making bad ones.

Of course I could always pack up everything and move to Cali like I did when I basically backpacked to NYC…

Adulting is hard 🙄

Social anxiety/trust issues + Personal Relationships = ???

Excellent question..

To this very day still solving this equation. Here’s what I’ve found so far.

My social aniexty and my distrust in people go hand in hand. My trust issues cause out of place and what some would call outrageous thinking especially in social interactions and relationships. My thought process on how to deal with and understand other people and how they interact was skewed a long time ago.

…like a glass plate once it’s broken, even if you gather all the peices; it will never be the same.

It is a daily struggle and an ongoing battle for me personally but I have learned that not everyone is out to get me. For the most part. I still think unrealistic pessimistic outcomes in certain social interactions. But not as much as I have in the past.

One of my coping methods that seem to be working is thinking, “What’s the worst that could happen?”. It sounds like thinking like that would actually increase my aniexty. On the contrary it helps. I am an over-thinker, can’t really change that and working on the way I think is still being, well; worked on. So no matter how outrageous and non-likely whatever crazy outcomes my aniexty cause me to come up with I let them play out in my head.

Most of the time these thoughts are so farfetched I end up laughing at myself and realizing how ridiculous I am. Some more realistic thoughts however do require some soul searching. For example: a lot of times I find myself stressing about what people’s intentions are with me. So I map out exactly what’s the worst that could happen if they are in fact out to hurt me in some way. I pretty confident in my ability to protect myself both physical and mentally. So instead of just wondering I prepare. 

The downside to this is it takes a lot of brain power to manifest these thoughts without hurling myself into some kind of depression. I would compare it someone being scared of a rollercoaster. They watching rare videos of people in rollercoaster accidents. Then look up exactly how rollercoasters work, how to spot defects and faults on the tracks; fully understanding the end and outs of the coaster and mapping out all the possibilities that could actually happen should they decided to get on that ride.

“Now that I’m actually writing this… You know what, this will probably only work for my weirdness.”

So technically I’m still working on the answer to the equations above…. 

My BALLS busted…***GENDERCAT AMAZEBALLS DISASTER

At 6 am….

In my bed…

Thank goodness this happened inside and not at my job or on public transportation 🙄

It held up for quite a while considering that it was one of the first beta products. GenderCat is improving their products everyday and now AMAZING BALLS are made with stronger silicone with the same great 3D floating testicles.

Even with the tester product I held up substantially well considering that it was my go-to , everyday packer.

I can’t wait for my new Amazeballs packer !!!

I’ll be sure to do another review once I get it 😊

Order yours today at GenderCat.com

First 6 months in my new apartment

Well well, never thought I’d get this far…

Let’s just say I’m like an adult cat , I can probably take care of myself but someone should be around.

This is the first time that I have lived alone for longer than two weeks in almost in a decade. I usually end up with a roommate or a partner. Yes I am aware I have dependency issues. Anywho, I am remarkable proud of myself for holding my own for this long without adult supervision.

Especially losing my job so suddenly back in late December. With less than $500 in savings I was pretty worried. I don’t normally live above my means anyways. But I did manage to let somethings go that weren’t necessities, like Netflix & my Xbox Game Pass. I work weird hours now so I don’t really have time for all that anyways.

Slipping into a slight depressive state for a  few weeks the end of January; jet lag from all the mistakes I made in 2017 most likely. I kept my mind and my apartment clean so and I’m doing much better.

Still have yet to seek out a physician to get back into therapy. But I’m still recovering from having to go through 3 different doctors in a year. My anxiety isn’t exactly telling me it’s a priority.

I’ve even used the open floor plan of my place to my advantage in my healthy living goals. I’ve been able to do more advanced at home work outs and even do a little yoga once in a while.

Over all I am very proud of myself 😊

“Wonder if you are too…”

2 month wolf 

🙄🐺…

Hey wavers, I know I’ve quiet about my waves for a minute now. 🤔

I’ve been wolfing to the max. If you read and recall last time I chemically burned my scalp, intensely damaged my hair and almost completely annihilated my wave pattern. What made the recovery even more difficult I had to go to an unknown barber who scalped my crown and on top of that a misplaced brushes and rags.

Some how I stuck to my guns almost the entire wolf, up until the last 2 of the 8 weeks. My corse hair of course, loves to curl up and be pretty rebellious after reaching a certain length. We all know I have zero to no type of patience when it comes to my hair not cooperating. So I basically stopped brushing my hair for a week. Amazing how you don’t notice when you always have a rag on.

This extra long wolf session was not planned or really wanted , but being optimistic about it all. I’ve never wolfed for more than 4-5 weeks. Also really got some good comb sessions in before everything went to complete shits. So I’m extremely curious to see what’s underneath and what does my wave pattern look like now. Plus the best part is I get a fresh cut. 

This time I will be going to a different baber (again) , fingers crossed I get a cut that I am pleased with. Especially since I’m going super low to a 1wtg no taper. Going low so I can really stick to the gains I got from this winter wolf. Even though I can’t see them, I know they’re there. Skipping the bald taper this time because I want to build my waves on the outer edges of my hair. During this wolf I found out that my edges get wavey too. So of course, let’s make this journey more complicated than it already is.

Be on the look out for my next Wavey YouTube video feature a spoiler alert for this coming spring!!!😎

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