Failing at HRT, again x6 maybe 7..

🙄🙄

But this time it’s not totally my fault..

Ok, well maybe it is..🤔

So as you know by now I have relocated to upstate NY which means I SHOULD switch my PCP to a new doctor and pharmacy in the area. And herein lies the problem; I had just found a doctor a liked. My original plan was to keep my same physician in the Bronx and just go once a month to refill my prescription and get blood work done. Then I started thinking, well that isn’t very smart. Which it still doesn’t seem to be. But I really rather not go through that aniexty of a new office, nurses and physician. So it may not be the smartest or cheapest way; but it is (what seems to be) the least stressful option.

Iman is a habitual procrastinator. Iman has problems making appointments. Iman has his priorities all mixed up..maybe..

So long story short I have yet to either switch to a new PCP or to see my old one and fill my prescription. So now am behind on my therapy…. Yet again. In my defense however; my stress & aniexty are still high from the move, new surrounds, new job, new everyday life. Not to mention working 6 days a week 50+ hrs & traveling every weekend, I have only had 1 or 2 chances to do either. We all know it takes me a few times to actually jump off the porch.

Lately I seem to have been doing better at adjusting and this should only be the only week I miss. Next weekend is self-care and I will be taking some down time to really recharge and relax. Life got overwhelming for a minute.

But I brought up this “fail” (again) at HRT because this time I do have a few changes to announce some good some bad. 

If you are up to date then you are aware that my dosage has changed again, this time amount and administration. Currently I am on .50 subcutaneous weekly injections in the fatty tissue of my belly.

So immediatly following the first week of the shot I experienced a 100% in my sex drive and overall physical stamina and endurance. Followed by a lost of appetite, which is weird because the actual amount of food I could consume in one sitting drastically increased.

Rounding my second weekly injections I starting experience “growing pains” in my muscles in my chest and upper back before I started my home work out routine.

After the first few days following my missed shot I started experiencing mood swings, a decrease in sex drive and an increase in appetite.

I don’t know exactly why third time in therapy it seems to be such drastic and apparent changes but I would like to assume that it’s because I switched from intramuscular to subcutaneous; I have absolutely no facts or proff of that, besides my gut feeling and know how my body normally reacts to therapy.

Hopefully this is the last missed shot and the last restart of HRT. With me, we can only hope for the best 😂🤞

-Thanks for reading

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Gendercat’s NEW “Fascination Sleeve(stand alone)” ***customer review

Hey everyone, back with another review for a new awesome product at  http://www.gendercat.com

So today I am doing a 2 WEEK Review. I normally don’t review anything I haven’t used for less than a month because… Well let’s make sure something really works or doesn’t before we go writing things all over the internet.

This awesome new product made it’s debut in Burlington, Vermont last Saturday at the 15th annual Translating Identity Conference.

See my quick wrap up here: 

So the Fascination Sleeve stand alone is basically what’s available in the hard textures of gendercat’s packers… But stand alone. Fits in your hand. 

The best part of this new invention is it’s dual purpose also acting as a pumping device. The ridges in the inside combined with suction is similar to the well known Fleshlight in comparison.  It currently comes in 2 sizes small and large. Available in a wide range of colors including skin tones. 

I personally enjoy the new stand alone fascination sleeve. I quickly outgrew the smaller size and had to upgrade to a large. But no complaints there. No pain even after extensive use(not that I’m recommending that) and it has also increased my stamina now that my penis is becoming use to direct stimulation.

Watch my YouTube review here:

First week of my NEW workout routine

Hey my fitness junkies & gym rats. Welcome.

My mission with this new work out routine is achieve my body goals in 6months no later than the summer of 2018.

Accompanying my *home routine workout is a not so strick healty diet but more importantly self-care. I’m not sure about any of you but nothing, especially nothing new is going to get accomplished in life if I’m not practicing self-care.

So for my first week I am eliminating red meat from my diet and focusing on my target area (Arms & Chest). Since I despise cardio I have instead decided to substitute by taking the stairs whenever possible. Office is on the 3 floor so it seems like an even enough trade off.

So my plan is for the first 3 weeks build my routine from the ground up and find what works for me and what doesn’t. Supposedly to be something like this:

Week 1: Arms & Chest
Week 2: Legs & Glutes
Week 3: Abs & Back

For week one my goal is to do 33 push ups a day, changing the type of push up daily hopefully to hit different muscle groups in that area i.e. close , open , triangle , wide , elevated etc. I choose 33 mainly because 15 is a comfort amount before the muscle group realizes it’s being worked. I can do about 23 in a row before the struggle. Also have to remember that I wanted to set a number realistically possible to reach EVERY day for 7 days IN A ROW. After crunching some numbers and deciding 33 was the easiest to remember and the most attractive number of my options. 20-40.

Honestly readers, I’m not sure how this is going to go; considering my track record 🤔. BUT things have been failing into place to maybe a physical fit body and a healthy diet will follow suit. Haven’t decided if I want to do weekly vlog wrap up the fails could make for good footage 😂 

Wish me luck !!!

Approaching 90days HRT

Hello readers, it’s been a few weeks since I gave y’all any update on HR therapy. 

Well I believe this go round I am currently approaching 90 days in hormone replacement therapy. This particular time in therapy I have decided to stick it out with injections and I must say at first it was unpleasant.

However I have switched from intramuscular injections in my thighs to subcutaneous injections in my belly. Much easier for me personally because the shorter needle gives me less aniexty and since it’s not as deep as intramuscular I don’t experience feeling a needle piercing my muscle.

So update on my dosage: I am now .50 weekly subcutaneous.

This will be my 3rd week doing subcutaneous self injections so I figure I would do a video showing how I do that and explaining a little bit more in depth on my feelings out looks and expectations this time in therapy

So the first 3 months this time in HRT is basically equivalent to the previous times minus I knew what to expect it just happened slightly more rapidly.

Also seems like either the more my body is introduced to hormones or just me being older this time around that I and completely getting better results from therapy. 

I am still experiencing some body fat shift in my chest, waist and glutes. Steadily increasing in over all body hair. And a beautiful surprise of new placed facial hair and darkening/thickening of hairs that have been with me from the very beginning. 

I haven’t had such an incredible in energy and stamina since my first time in therapy (’14-’15). But I love it. Feels like I have also gained in total strength I’ll know that for sure in my next trip to the gym.

My bottom growth has returned bringing my sex drive back with a vengeance. I really could do with out the random boners. I can’t say much for actual growth because I never lost what I gained and I have also took up pumping so I can’t really judge what’s from horomones and what’s from pumping.

I am excited to see how the change from intramuscular to subcutaneous will effect the progress of my therapy.

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4 weeks in HRT *(again, again)

A month strong (minus one hiccup) in hormone replacement therapy 🙌🏾

The first few weeks are the same every time. Subtle changes in the body here and there; if you know what you’re looking for.

What I can say restarting therapy so many times on different dosages has allowed me to see and understand the effects of my levels vs the amount and speed my body goes through certain changes.

Recap:

Original Dosage : .25
Biweekly

Original Gel Dosage : 1g /day

Restarted Dosage : .50
Weekly

Restarted Gel Dosage : 5g / day

Current Dosage : .25
Biweekly

 

My first levels ever test came back a little over 900. Definitely not good. For those who don’t know target testosterone levels for me are 600-850. *2014
Being more knowledgeable now I also notice that each time I reentered therapy my levels reacted differently excluding the change in dosage. As I suspected back then; the more on the low side my levels are the more rapid my body experiences the “re-puberty”.
So setting my own standards I am putting my target T levels at 650-750. Small window but it’s my transition so I think it’s fair I set my goals and limitations.

Looking back on all the times I began HRT I think the most evolved trait due to the introduction of hormones would be hair. Not so much the end result but the actual journey. To come from a place where peach fuzz took months to come in and regrow and was so thin and light it looked like my hairs could be wiped off. To now where legit stubble arrives at just under a week and and returning sporadic dark whisker patches on the bottom of both of my cheeks. And the icing on the cake my legit stache connects to my valid chin whiskers to make a struggling goatee. None of which I could say I had before. Wont even get started on the chest , belly and back hair.

In & out. Up & down the only thing that seemed to noticeably fluctuate was my weight, fat distribution & sex drive. Still I’ve heard unstable levels over time can be a health concern. But I’m sure everyone here already knows not to follow be behind me. 🤷🏾‍♂️

Personally each time in therapy got a little easier. I understood more. I got insurance. Overcame my phobias of needles (now I just don’t like them). And best of all I’ve learned how to make hormones a priority and actually stick to some type of schedule.

Back to present day…

Same changes around the same time period as the first time in hormone replacement therapy. Maybe a little more prudent because i.e. this isn’t my first rodeo. Hair was already growing there. Fat had been redistributed before. Adam’s apple had already enlarged etc.

Nothing magical…

Wish I could have more to share but the first month is usually boring.

If my calculations are correct my first home self injection should be coming up soon so be on the look out for that.

 

Thank you to all my readers !
-Iman

First self injection in 2 years 

Yes newsflash people Kris is back in HRT and back on injections. If you’ve been here then of course you know I’m terrible with my medication. And if you’re just getting here… well, welcome to the shit show.

Recap. It’s been about 3 months since I switch from injections to the Gel. And it’s been about 6 weeks since I’ve basically dropped out of HRT.

What better time then now to get back into the swing of things, right?

It’s been sooo long since I did a self injection the anxiety I have towards needles hit me like a damn truck. But being that I was in the clinic and this was my first self injection class I had no choice but to find my balls and stick myself

After profusely sweating for about 7 mins. Several attempts at actually having the needle make contact with my skin. A handful of cuss words. And of course a few “no I don’t want to, you do it!”‘s (my nurse was the real MVP) I finally gave it all I had, the needle pierced my skin, I pushed the plunger…

And poof, just like that it was all over.

Apparently back in 2014 I skipped the viable skills I needed to learn on how to properly self inject. Not to mention the fact I was given the wrong gauge needles 🙄.

Nevertheless I came and I conquered my fear !!!

My originally dosage for the year was .5 weekly. I hated it. A shot EVERY week, nah. So now that I’ve switched physicians my new dosage is a comfortable .5 biweekly 🙌. These seems manageable for me.

So this week I will be setting up, preparing & injecting my own shot. And btw shout outs to my nurse !!!

Stay tuned for how I deal with being back in HRT with injections.

 

Testosterone x4

Yes yes your favorite guy is back in HRT !

Giving it a good try yet again 🤷🏾‍♂️. Approaching my 26th birthday and I realized I ain’t getting any younger so I might as well try to get this therapy thing right.

But 😩 being off injections for quite some time and maybe being this is the upteenth million time shit is hitting me like a truck.

Within a matter of days I’m eating like a horse again , regained my strength and stamina & of course my sex drive. Got the fuzzy wuzzy syndrome going on not to mention the flame on moments.

Still nevertheless feeling more confident than I have even been with this time in therapy. I look forward to my second class on self injections. The responsibility with keeping up with doctor visits , Rxs , refills , supplies etc. I fill more confident in my ability to make this a priority.

Just within the few 2 weeks ,of course there’s not to report soldier. Carry on.

 

My life as a “Cute” grown ass man..

Some people have cute smiles. Some people have cute personalities. Some people have cute bodies. You can see where I’m going with this.

I have way too many cute attributes. Especially as society expects a grown man of color to be portrayed as.

Now before you think I’m sucking my own dick let me explain I am no way in any form bragging on my cuteness. Honestly the shits not all it’s cracked up to be after age 5.

Just to emphasize; I went through an ugly duckling phase. Weirdly enough I was an adorable little girl then matured into this awkward prepubescent and then evolved in to this adolescent social butterfly.

Between the ages of 5 – 9 I was adorable my dimple would always get my way and my thick eyebrows and hyperjetic facial expressions got me out of almost anything.

As a child I always heard “you are so cute ” “oh wow she is so adorable” I’d give a little fake smile yada yada.

Fast forwarding here cause we are getting off track ; Now at almost 26 years old this “cute thing” does more harm then good in soooo many different ways. Yes of course I’m going to explain.

It’s is so hard to look my age. A simply task, taken for granted; that so many of you do naturally. It’s the 8th wonder of the world for me. I struggle from what style clothes I should wear. The way I wear my hair. Even the way I walk into a business or establishment. It’s a bother it is. And it’s rooted in the basic fact that I have a cute face. When you hear cute facial features your brain doesn’t necessarily think “man” now does it. So put a cute face on a individual the size of a teenager most likely in a Pokémon Tee plus the amount of facial hair (mainly peach fuzz) of a prepubescent male. You see a sweet innocent cute young man. In some instances I’ve gotten as young as 14 (Caucasian) an in the rare occasion besides when someone guesses my correct age I’ve only gotten as old as 24 on a good day. You know nice suit fresh shave pep in his step kinda days.

Damn this cute face.

Mistaken identity; believe it or not me being so often perceived as a cute little young boy I get mistaken as such like for real. I’ve gotten stopped for being “truant” at 11:30 on a school day. Getting carded while my young barely legal associates walk right on through. And yes even embarrassingly enough mistook for a son when I was a boyfriend. Issa boyfriend. More recently being hit on by girls that are barely half my age. That’s appalling and disturbing to say the least. Not to mention that 16 year olds are staring to look at attempt to act like grown women. But this hasn’t just happen. This has been going on for quite some time in my liddo ol life. Interesting story about my first age ain’t nothing but a number till ha ppl find out scare. But will save that for another day. Point is when you look young you like shift into a whole other age bracket. And that sucks when it’s like been there done that.

Not being taken seriously. One person has a pit bull as a watch dog , another person has a chihuahua as a watch dog. Which person to you think is getting robbed more ? Maybe an extreme analogy but stay with me. Because this cute attribute makes every day like stressful to some extent. Especially when a person like me is already wary of relationships with other humans. Nice guys finish last but cute guys never finished. When you suffer from a cute personality people often see you as docile calm and in no way a  threat. And it’s not like a brightly color “oh that’s cute but that shit can fuck me up cause it’s probably poisonous”. Its like that kid that stalks a harmless butterfly because it’s “cute” and then squashes it because it’s in now way shape or form dangerous.

With that being said take into consideration that I am that cute little butterfly every day of my life.

 

 

So I ask you is being cute all that it’s cracked up to be

Slow & Steady…

Peace & blessings Guys , Gals and Everyone in between.

I made a sad attempt at getting 2 blogs out in a week. I swear I don’t have that much to write about. New York springs are basically winter to me , so I stay indoors and cabin fever turns into writer’s block.

This a small therapy update.

5 days ago I switched to the gel. After missing a weekly injection for 3 time and honestly not really being upset about it, I decided to just switch to the gel. Luckily for me it was covered by my insurance and I’m still paying barely nothing.

Since I switched to gel & I have zero anxiety about “shot day”. 😂

But seriously,

I’m on a different type of gel then I had been on previously. But it’s basically the same. Instead of jar and a measuring spoons it’s 30 convenient individual tubes. It’s 5 grams per day instead of the 1 gram I was familiar with. It’s specific location is the chest , shoulders & upper arms; but we all know I don’t follow rules.

All in all the only negative thing I have to say about it is it’s a little more sticky then I expected and would like. But about 10-15mins after application it’s completely dry and no longer has the feeling of slight stickiness. I would compare it to the feeling of confusing the handsanitizer with the soap.

My last T levels were around 600 and I believe that a month of shots so probably have my levels checked again a month and some change on the gel.

Spoiler alert I’ve been on the gel less than a week and I already missed a day , typical Kris.

Smell ya later 

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Merry.. Er, umm.. Happy uh, ehh..

 

Sometimes you meet angels. They look like regular people. But something is different; their energy, their vibe. You can feel it. It warms your heart. Gives you a feeling of joy, hope; that the world maybe isnt that bad of a place. I love meeting angels. Especially since the world is lately in such a dark space, filled with so much evil & animosity. I have only been luck enough to meet about 4 angels that I know of. But each was a blessing in its own way. Even if it was only momentarily. As the years pass I see less & less people (myself included) excited or even in a good mood during the holidays. Yes, times are different. Yes, the world has gotten darker. Yes, the holidays are now more commercialized then ever. BUT take it for what its worth. Make the best of it & at the very least be grateful, thankful and joyful that you have lived through this year because sooo many others cannot say the same.

-The Grinch
Taking a small writers hiatus for the holidays… So ill catch everyone up in January.

Merry/Happy whatever you celebrate!!!

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