Failing at HRT, again x6 maybe 7..

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But this time it’s not totally my fault..

Ok, well maybe it is..πŸ€”

So as you know by now I have relocated to upstate NY which means I SHOULD switch my PCP to a new doctor and pharmacy in the area. And herein lies the problem; I had just found a doctor a liked. My original plan was to keep my same physician in the Bronx and just go once a month to refill my prescription and get blood work done. Then I started thinking, well that isn’t very smart. Which it still doesn’t seem to be. But I really rather not go through that aniexty of a new office, nurses and physician. So it may not be the smartest or cheapest way; but it is (what seems to be) the least stressful option.

Iman is a habitual procrastinator. Iman has problems making appointments. Iman has his priorities all mixed up..maybe..

So long story short I have yet to either switch to a new PCP or to see my old one and fill my prescription. So now am behind on my therapy…. Yet again. In my defense however; my stress & aniexty are still high from the move, new surrounds, new job, new everyday life. Not to mention working 6 days a week 50+ hrs & traveling every weekend, I have only had 1 or 2 chances to do either. We all know it takes me a few times to actually jump off the porch.

Lately I seem to have been doing better at adjusting and this should only be the only week I miss. Next weekend is self-care and I will be taking some down time to really recharge and relax. Life got overwhelming for a minute.

But I brought up this “fail” (again) at HRT because this time I do have a few changes to announce some good some bad. 

If you are up to date then you are aware that my dosage has changed again, this time amount and administration. Currently I am on .50 subcutaneous weekly injections in the fatty tissue of my belly.

So immediatly following the first week of the shot I experienced a 100% in my sex drive and overall physical stamina and endurance. Followed by a lost of appetite, which is weird because the actual amount of food I could consume in one sitting drastically increased.

Rounding my second weekly injections I starting experience “growing pains” in my muscles in my chest and upper back before I started my home work out routine.

After the first few days following my missed shot I started experiencing mood swings, a decrease in sex drive and an increase in appetite.

I don’t know exactly why third time in therapy it seems to be such drastic and apparent changes but I would like to assume that it’s because I switched from intramuscular to subcutaneous; I have absolutely no facts or proff of that, besides my gut feeling and know how my body normally reacts to therapy.

Hopefully this is the last missed shot and the last restart of HRT. With me, we can only hope for the best πŸ˜‚πŸ€ž

-Thanks for reading

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Let’s talk RELATIONSHIPS *#What’sUpIman

Hey readers, welcome back; today we a pulling a question out of the #WHATSUPIMAN hat !

So the original question pulled was:

“Are you in a relationship/ Which gender(s) do you date?”

Yup, so some readers who know me personally already know the answer to this question but for those who don’t know.. ..

What’s up Iman !?!

A few years ago at the very beginning of my transition I began to internally question my sexuality since I myself had recently become “the grey area” ;so to speak. At the time I was married to a onegender woman. Which had already made unrelated comments about how she felt about transrelationships & transgender people being interested in the same sex. I had also assumed that I was going to be with that person for the rest of my life so I figure it didn’t really matter what gender I was attracted to, I was already married and off the market.

Yes at the time I was somewhat in denial or just didn’t want to face the fact that I had become curious in relationships not only out of the cisgender heteronormative spectrum but also outside of the homosexual normative (apparently). 

I was always “bicurious” but I quickly realized that being transgender that umbrella in itself didn’t quite fit in the rap sheet…

As my marriage came to an end I was free to explore my sexuality and then I came across the term “pansexual”. Of course I’m not big on labels, but being pansexual seemed about as labeless as I was going to find. Not long after my discovery I started completely living in my truth; not just a transman but a pansexual.

For those who don’t know the definition of pansexual in laymen’s terms: I am attracted to any and all human genders. Male, female, transfemale, transmale, GNC etc.

I am still growing and coming in to myself so there’s is much more to learn about my self and my attractions.

I am currently in a relationship with a transwoman, we have been dating for about 7 months now and I must admit this is the most understanding relationship I have been in since/regarding my transition. I personally find onegender women don’t really get me like transwomen. 

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My advice for “dating while trans” , is to first make sure you are comfortable enough with yourself before you try and date anyone regardless of gender. Dating and maintaining a relationship is hard enough. Adding mood swings, dysphoria, searching for validation, surgeries, etc will only add on to the stress of making even the easiest relationship work.

If you are not yet comfortable with yourself, your body or where you are at in your transition how can you expect to be comfortable enough to be with someone else?

If you have any further questions about my sexuality or ftm/mtf relationship feel free to ask & I’ll make sure to cover them in the next episode of #WhatsUpIman .

As always thanks for stopping by.

-Iman

Let’s talk, BABIES *whats up Iman

 

YES , I said babies πŸ‘Ά. Of course if you knew me a few years ago , hell my whole life actually up into the last couple months you most likely will take this as a joke. But I warn you this is not a drill.

I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I realized that I’m pushing thirty with no kids of my own, that I have finally become comfortable enough with myself as an adult to give it a try, or that I’ve realized that I can finally truly have a “baby momma”.

Ok so let’s get the dumb questions out of the way πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™‚οΈ. How is man going to have a baby ? Come on people we are in 2017. Google is a thing , use it. But I know sometimes people completely ignorant to queer/trans lifestyles some how find their way to my blog. So for my avid readers bear with me as I clear somethings up for the lost one-gendered people.

Of course being a transman it is still medically and physically possible for me to make a baby. Also being a transman it’s is medically and physically possible for me to carry said child.

Duh.

So let’s travel down memory lane for a second. I have raised children from babies to toddlers to adolescents; from teens to adults & yes even adults to older adults. In my younger years (beside just not liking kids) I put having biological kids out of my mind because, well; I’m the daddy. Meaning I’d rather not procreate with another masculine person.

Now that the black and white area has become grey and I’ve taken more than just a stroll on the queer side I’ve found that having biological kids with a feminine person is not as far fetched as it seems for a guy like me.

So with all that on the table I have made the conscious decision to procreate with another transgender individual. Of course that means I will have to carry the baby myself. Not saying it’s gonna be the best time of my life but you play the cards you’re dealt. This allows me to have a biological child with a feminine person.

Yea I’m talking bout that trans on trans love y’all ❀️. Ha ha.

Now of course this is still somewhat new to society and I am very much prepared for everyone’s opinions (wether I asked for them or not). Backlash from not only the cis-hetero-normative community & the LGB community but also from my own trans community. But we all know Kris gives no fucks. 🀣

To some degree the idea of coparenting still makes me uneasy because of my Virgo characteristics. Knowing that in some instances I will have to compromise on the way I want to raise my child because it will be OUR child (to some luck woman).

But I’ve seen so many baby momma/baby daddy issues it’s more or less in the back of my mind. As long as you coparent with someone you have a strong line of communication with you can get through anything as a family.

So then biggest worry I have with this whole coparenting idea is how it will affect my child. 2 homes. 2 sets of parents. 2 lives. πŸ˜” However I am given hope because I first hand saw how it will affect the child well into adulthood.

So the biggest challenge now would be to find a woman that is willing to procreate and coparent with me😩. I’m not that bad of a guy but then again I ain’t exactly what some would call a “catch”. There is someone for everyone. Or at least what the old folks used to tell the ugly kids growing up.

So in closing; I am now taking applications for baby mother. Inquire within. πŸ˜‚

Happy hunting !

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Travel jitters

 

Well it’s been almost a year since I last hopped a bus, train or plane & I seem to have a case of the butterflies.
Philadelphia is a place I haven’t yet been so I am overly anxious to add another notch on my belt. Also the weekend break from NYC will be much appreciated.

What better way to pass a two hour bus ride than to blog 😊.

I am traveling from New York to Philadelphia to attend my first Philly TransHealth conference. I will be going as an official representative from project Freedom Underground / Free Ky. I am also attending to meet and sit with the Creator & Owner of GenderCat. Not to mention all the information and knowledge at my fingertips while I am there.

This is the first conference I have ever attend and I am definitely feeling a mixture of emotions. But over all I’m excited and I can’t wait for the experience.

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Finally dropped the YouTube channel !!!

 

πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™‚οΈ well almost dropped it
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Seriously. It’s been going on 2 years since I was suppose to make my official appearance on my own YouTube channel. Yes. My own personal YouTube channel. If you have been following me since before this blog then you might be familiar wit some other channels & co-channels I have been a part of in the past. Maybe even stumbled across one of my accounts as a teenie-bopper. But this time it’s the real deal. πŸ’―

So the channel is still under minor reconstructions but it is available so make sure you hit this link πŸ‘‡πŸΎπŸ‘‡πŸΎ

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgw_LAtfNAp2WHLtOs4PZuw/featured

And subscribe ; wouldn’t want you to miss anything. 😁

The official trailer will be dropping August 26th followed by the intro making its grand debut 2 weeks later on my 26th birthday; September 10 πŸ”₯πŸ”₯ Definitely don’t want to miss either!

But if you still need convincing here’s a quick run down on what my channel will be offering (😏for now)…

1. Follow my life as I continuously transition. Of course that’s on here, duh πŸ™„. As always I will be an open book regarding my transition. Doctor appointments. Stats & levels. Changes & growth. The works. (Also might throw in a open tranzguy forum , but for now thats low key information)
2. My most current hair style endeavor. Dropping the man bun, retiring the thottyboy braids and testing out the “waves” ;again completely detailed. Brush & wolf sessions. Hair cuts & products. The do’s & the don’t’s. Since this my first legit attempt most likely many, many epic fail moments.
3. My road to peak physical fitness. One of my least favorite subjects, taking into consideration that I love junk food and I’m too lazy to work out. Bare with me if this is the highlight of your subscription. But it will entail my diet methods equipped with superfoods smoothies, home exercises, meditation etc. Maybe even throw a yoga day in there.
4. Traveling adventures. Even though my travels have slowed within the last year there is still ample footage and wacky adventures just waiting to be published. No matter how much I don’t like them I can’t seem to help meeting new people.
5. Reviews & Promos. Insider information: I have partnered with a new prosthetic company and can’t wait to tell you about their products and services. Also I think I’ll give Yelp a try. Ha ha 😜just kidding. If you ask me this is what most people will stick around to watch.
6. Raw footage. Saved the best for last. Whether you are an adoring fan, fumed hater or creepy stalker. Get ready for some unedited , unscripted and uncut scenes from the life of yours truly. So if all else fails come be nosy πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Great! Now that I have your attention; here go subscribe πŸ‘‡πŸΎπŸ‘‡πŸΎ

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgw_LAtfNAp2WHLtOs4PZuw/featured

It’s literally 2 clicks πŸ‘πŸΎ you can do it!!

If you are still not convinced that’s fine too. I appreciate you stopping by and reading my blog. (My readers usually get the scoop first anyways) Don’t think as just a reader you aren’t appreciated. You are just as important as any of my fans on any of my social platforms. ❀️

Pick & Choose. Mix your potion.
Catch you there.

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My life as a “Cute” grown ass man..

Some people have cute smiles. Some people have cute personalities. Some people have cute bodies. You can see where I’m going with this.

I have way too many cute attributes. Especially as society expects a grown man of color to be portrayed as.

Now before you think I’m sucking my own dick let me explain I am no way in any form bragging on my cuteness. Honestly the shits not all it’s cracked up to be after age 5.

Just to emphasize; I went through an ugly duckling phase. Weirdly enough I was an adorable little girl then matured into this awkward prepubescent and then evolved in to this adolescent social butterfly.

Between the ages of 5 – 9 I was adorable my dimple would always get my way and my thick eyebrows and hyperjetic facial expressions got me out of almost anything.

As a child I always heard “you are so cute ” “oh wow she is so adorable” I’d give a little fake smile yada yada.

Fast forwarding here cause we are getting off track ; Now at almost 26 years old this “cute thing” does more harm then good in soooo many different ways. Yes of course I’m going to explain.

It’s is so hard to look my age. A simply task, taken for granted; that so many of you do naturally. It’s the 8th wonder of the world for me. I struggle from what style clothes I should wear. The way I wear my hair. Even the way I walk into a business or establishment. It’s a bother it is. And it’s rooted in the basic fact that I have a cute face. When you hear cute facial features your brain doesn’t necessarily think “man” now does it. So put a cute face on a individual the size of a teenager most likely in a PokΓ©mon Tee plus the amount of facial hair (mainly peach fuzz) of a prepubescent male. You see a sweet innocent cute young man. In some instances I’ve gotten as young as 14 (Caucasian) an in the rare occasion besides when someone guesses my correct age I’ve only gotten as old as 24 on a good day. You know nice suit fresh shave pep in his step kinda days.

Damn this cute face.

Mistaken identity; believe it or not me being so often perceived as a cute little young boy I get mistaken as such like for real. I’ve gotten stopped for being “truant” at 11:30 on a school day. Getting carded while my young barely legal associates walk right on through. And yes even embarrassingly enough mistook for a son when I was a boyfriend. Issa boyfriend. More recently being hit on by girls that are barely half my age. That’s appalling and disturbing to say the least. Not to mention that 16 year olds are staring to look at attempt to act like grown women. But this hasn’t just happen. This has been going on for quite some time in my liddo ol life. Interesting story about my first age ain’t nothing but a number till ha ppl find out scare. But will save that for another day. Point is when you look young you like shift into a whole other age bracket. And that sucks when it’s like been there done that.

Not being taken seriously. One person has a pit bull as a watch dog , another person has a chihuahua as a watch dog. Which person to you think is getting robbed more ? Maybe an extreme analogy but stay with me. Because this cute attribute makes every day like stressful to some extent. Especially when a person like me is already wary of relationships with other humans. Nice guys finish last but cute guys never finished. When you suffer from a cute personality people often see you as docile calm and in no way aΒ  threat. And it’s not like a brightly color “oh that’s cute but that shit can fuck me up cause it’s probably poisonous”. Its like that kid that stalks a harmless butterfly because it’s “cute” and then squashes it because it’s in now way shape or form dangerous.

With that being said take into consideration that I am that cute little butterfly every day of my life.

 

 

So I ask you is being cute all that it’s cracked up to be

Look what the ferret dragged in…

Well hello hello reader & peepers.
Allow me to extend a brief re-introduction. My name is Kristian Iman King. My associates call me Kris, my friends call me King & those who really know me call me Iman. I am 25 year young black man originally from New Orleans, currently living in Houston. And you have stumbled onto the blog of a young introverted black transman trying to find himself and make sense of this crazy world while doing so.

To my return readers… Yet again I find myself apologizing again for the hiatus. 2016 has been not so kind to me. But to my new readers welcome & you have come at the right time, or so it seems.
I have recently relocated from New Orleans to Houston, TX. I am currently experiencing life instead of just living it. Meaning instead of the ball and chain 9 – 5 I am practicing more of an “as the wind blows” kind of lifestyle. Hence me blogging again.
As far as my transition once again I have taken a break from therapy and focus more of myself inwardly rather than worrying about gender & transition. I have taken up a vegan/vegetarianism eating habit. And also focus more on physical well being and staying active. Mental wise I has decieded to expand outside of my comfort zone and experience new things. Out here in Houston everything is new to me anyways! Still working on a future YouTube channel (so be on the lookout)!
There isnt much else to say in this icebreaker. Im glad to be back and happy that you are here too.
Yall come back now, ya hear?

-Iman King

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Fb: Kristian King

“Excuse me, can you turn your ‘cis’ down? You’re disturbing my ‘genders’.”

Peace & blessings yet again everyone. I know the title is a bit unorthodox so lets jump right in and break it down shall we. Great.
First and foremost let me remind my readers that this a personal blog full of personal ideas and some beliefs. Dont get butt hurt cause its different. πŸ‘Œ

Now then.. This blog is me breaking down genders by prefixes and suffixes; mainly to give depth to why I personally changing my vocabulary.

I am no expert on gender, but I think I can give a pretty good jist of it:

Gender non confirming
An individual that does not necessarily fall under 1 gender; no-gender, agender

Bi-gender
An individual that can fall under 2 or more genders; combine or separate.

Transgender
An individual that has made a transition from one gender to another; male to female, female to male.

Cisgender
An individual that is the same gender assigned from birth until death; one gender.

I never did agree on the “cisgender” term. I personally feel like the term
Onegender would be more suitable. Cisgender are women or men that are born into one gender and stay that way.
Cisgender. Its sounds like “ciscioety” and the “cistem” are trying to make onegender the “normal” gender to be. Like cisgender isn’t even a gender, its just a normal person.
Dont get me wrong I love all my onegender people, my wife is a onegender woman; married to a transgender man.
This is my personal opinion on the whole word, term definiton. It is what is in the dictionary(just dont get one 5-10years old).
So from now on my faithful readers when l say onegender you will understand what l mean.
I have love for all genders of course! After all the genitals dont make gender and gender doesnt make a person.

Thanks again for stopping by, until next time…

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